He woke up at 4 am this morning. I was awaken by the lights and I saw him praying. Maybe tahajjud. Once he’s done, he went back to sleep and hugged me. I was pretending I was asleep but the tinkle made me laugh. Then he told me that he just had this best dream. 

It started with him holding a balloon and he’s like flying, around his hometown’s house. He saw his father, and his hometown friends. There are lots of people watching him. He said he felt really peaceful while flying with the balloon.

Then he and I and another 2 friends went for solat jemaah. Inside the mosque, he saw this girl (with a name, her name is Rose). He saw Rose recite Iqamah. He told me that Rose was his schoolmate, she’s quite pretty and she’s the alim type. But she’s married in real life.

I told him that maybe he would want that kind of wife. He told me, no. He never think of her at all, even when we had trouble last time. (And I forgot to ask him, who did he think of when I gave him a hell of a time 3 months ago). I told him dream is sometimes about your subconscious mind wanting something but you didn’t realize it. Dream can be true sometimes. Dream can be just dream. And I reminded him that he is one person who always has a good instinct because somehow God shows him things through his dreams. At least 3 of them. The first two was about me and it’s so true and the third one was him going to Mecca and he did go to Mecca. And I was this close to tell him about my dream 3 months ago, and his dream last October. But I told myself not to. Not this time.

Then I kept on thinking, maybe this is a sign. A sign for him and I to re-look at our status. I will look for this Rose person and try to access what-if scenarios. Well, I know it sounds crazy but hey if it’s for a good purpose, why not.

Songwriters: Bouvier, Pierre; Comeau, Charles-Andre;

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
Well deep inside you’re bleeding

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life


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